Back to Brazil!
During our last couple of days we didn’t do much except eat and spend time with family. Here’s a few random snaps!
Food. Always food. Above is the best meat I’ve ever had. Yum.
Some kind of super sweet sweetcorn dessert, delicious but oh so sweet.
Played around by the pool with G behind the camera
Tried sugarcane juice for the first time. It tastes like.. sugar.
This is where we walked to get those pictures in my previous post
Showed grandmother how to use snapchat..
Attempted to nap
Spent time with these two <3
Did some more posing by the pool
My fave shot, haha.
Had lots and lots of ice cream
And obviously more food, here at a buffet restaurant in Mineiros. Delicious.
On my last day we woke up at 7am due to our friends arriving home, haha. The day before me and G had joked about shooting in the sunrise and since we were now up at 7am we thought, why not! We walked down to the near-empty beach and took some really great photos that I’ll post as soon as G has finished playing around with them (read: editing).
Later we had lunch nearby and got ready for Ants, a “pool” party at Ushuaïa. Now, I thought it was a pool party with lounges, pools (!) and different areas but oh no, it was basically a rave. Since I thought I’d be swimming I braided my hair.. The team!We entered the rave and it was pretty quiet to begin with so we chilled by the only pool they had – a kids one. I’ve learnt (at Ibiza) that I am genuinely not into this type of house music at all. I’ll happily listen to commercial house where I can sing along or lounge/chilled house, but this was on another level. It started getting busier and I thought early on that I wouldn’t enjoy myself but stayed put as everyone else was having a great time (mistake number 1). After a while it got super busy and an overwhelming anxiety kicked in out of nowhere and I felt claustrophobic. I didn’t say anything (mistake number 2). G asked if I wanted to go and eventually we did, by then I had stayed for about two hours. We struggled to walk through the crowds of drugged and drunk people and I struggled to breathe – also, being a quite petite person it only gets worse as everyone seems to be skyscrapers in comparison.
As soon as we got out I felt better but I wanted to cry so badly. We walked back to our apartment and as soon as I was inside I broke down crying. For the next couple of hours we spoke about how I felt, why I didn’t say I wanted to leave and a bunch of other things. Because everyone else was having a good time and we were such a big group I didn’t want to be the girlfriend who wanted to leave and be boring. Stupid reasoning, I know, and definitely a big lesson learnt.
My bestie Katie wrote to me about her friend and said.. she’s living by a new philosophy which is; if a situation or environment doesn’t serve her positively she will simply change it – guilt free! It comes down to listening to what you want and acting on it without worrying what other people think. It comes down to self love.
Katie said a lot of other awesome and beautiful things in her email that I re-read it every now and again to remind myself.
Anyway. After our little drama I touched up my makeup (thank god for waterproof mascara!) and changed – it was finally time to explore Old Town! More on that in the next post 🙂
Swimsuit from here