During a quiet hour at work I decided to check out Buzzfeed and came across this article. Literally everything she said (except the medicine taking part) spoke to me.
She starts explaining that she’s very co-dependent and have always wanted people to like her.
Seriooouuusly though. Since I was young I have always depended on others approval and affection and it would hurt if others didn’t like me. Genuinely hurt. It took me a long ass time to realise that it was down to me. I had to love myself in order for others to love me. I had to start putting myself first instead of others (I still suck at this, hah).
She mentions rejection and this is a topic I covered during a few therapy sessions and that I probably still need to talk through. Instead of simply being rejected I would keep quiet to not be rejected, I would change my opinions on something in order not to be rejected and so on.
She then touches on anxiety and depression and I have and have had both. It’s a serious topic that many wants to joke around about (because they don’t know what it feels like or what it even is, educate yourself please) but if you have it, you need to talk about it. Talk to someone who understands, who can empathise and just say “I get it”. Kirsten was lucky enough to have a mom who seemed to know a lot about it whereas I learned an enormous amount in therapy.
I’m not convinced you can “cure” yourself and be completely anxiety and depression free for the rest of your life, but I have learnt various mind-tools to use when I feel anxious or down to help. It’s an ongoing journey and all I can do is talk to others about it and simply just be me.
I quite enjoy talking about anxiety and depression with others – not that it’s the most cool and joyful topic ever – but it can bring you so close to someone so quickly, and you will both benefit from talking about it. So let’s talk about it.